Bah

Why can't I just go rallying? Maybe I need to play more RBR. I played it for the first time in ages yesterday and it was a lot of fun. Great way to take the mind off things.

Almost went to a rave tonight. Weord to say the least. Didn't end up going for a variety of reasons I'm not completely sure about even now. But in the end, it didn't feel comfortable as a #2 tag-along and in any case there will be more opportunities.
Glad to've saved some money which might buy a tank of petrol for a nice drive/picnic later this month.

While the Weltmeisterschaft (World Cup) keeps my hours nocturnal, work and exam preparation (procrastination) keep my brain in a weird mild depression. Probably as depressed as I get as I'm not one for proper depression. If I get too down I generally draw way back and look at the big picture to find that it's not so bad. That in turn gives me a fairly laid back attitude to life which doesn't help with my procrastination and the subsequent mild depression. See any pattern forming here? Infinite loop.

What keeps me from cycling continuously through the pattern is external distractions. Girls, sport and driving are all good for that. Although thinking about girls makes me miss having a good relationship, it's a distraction from the norm... or is it just additional complication?

Speaking of girls... man, there are so many girls out there who I could not bear to live with. Really weird. You'd think people would be more compatable. Pity the few girls with personalities I'm attracted to aren't attracted to me and my personality.